Life is the grieving process over and over. This is what you must know in order to do more than “just get through it”, trust me. I do.
Right at the cusp, “this isn’t working anymore” and “I wonder what else is out there?.”
This is the frustration I often hear when people are expanding their worldview.
At this moment we are talking about Anger, Depression, and Upturn.
To leave a place I’ve found I must be okay with having been there. I usually find if I am not. I am angry.
I forgive.
This breaks way too many new thoughts and ideas of how I got here, to begin with. Usually, in this, I am able to detach myself from something that feels, native-personal.
Next, it’s time to allow sadness to take place. I have to face boldly what I have lost. This is accountability. This is living your truth. Coming to terms.
I usually cry here. And move the energy around to feel better. Sex.
It usually gives room to the feeling of, well. There’s more. I am not dead. Indeed very much alive. This usually sparks thoughts about what else it could be like.
After this point, I have detached myself from perfection. The idea I once held as the perfect way to do something is no more because it never was. (This is what I touched on earlier). I pray profusely in this time. I talk aloud repeatedly. I let myself be heard, to myself. My mind will then begin to make monkey bars, which I will swing to and between until there is thought so invigorating it feels good to think it. In this stage, I remind myself of my work as a learner, and all I’ve done. From there you have become your bridge and your waymaker.
Beloved, might I suggest. If you can mention it.
It has already occurred and you my dear are just realizing it. Your intention was set anytime you say “I want”.
You can pass the time by looking at the clues. Like a passenger on the train. Those stops come sure enough. The clues will show you every stage you are in. (If you’re an anxious traveler this is sometimes comforting, it is also tempting to get off)
It’s almost soothing to stay aboard through every stop. Knowing the end already you don’t have to take your emotions through the stops. No need to recheck your bag.
What I am suggesting, is you merely apply the same process that you have for any other thing you’ve found your way to success, to this one.
You are not without YOUR strategy.
Do not be disillusioned with the quest. Your trigger may be triggered, but you remain.
If you know your process, you can do it.
If you know the archetype, you know the story.
The smaller the example of the practice the better for your brain.
Remember I told you the story of the key fob, and how I learned to steady myself. The was small. But my brain could see it and cross apply.
If you can add 1+1 you can add anything.
Voldemort only lived in the minds of others as an idea. He needed the physical bodies of others to even live.
We are of two minds. The one we come with and the one that forms over time.
We can access both. We need both. But we cannot serve two masters.
They both proliferate naturally and evenly.
What’s most important is you don’t have to weigh them as enemies. You just need to know who is talking to you. That’s what it means to trust.
